168. Addiction

Pocketeers
it has been three days since my last dose. (Progress huh?)
i'm trembling inside, the bone felt like its
exposed to the air outside. cold and dry.
the muscle ache. Eye Balls watering up
like i'm cutting onion using my nose as
the chopping board. aaaarrrgghhh!!

Unlike my usual days, i woke up today trying
my best not to think about what day is it.
Cause if today is wednesday,
my source for 'it' will be Seberang jaya.
If today is thursday, it'll be sungai dua.
Well i've tried to forget what day it is this morning,
but the sound of spongebob opening theme just
gave away the mystery.
Its sunday and my source today would be alma.

i know where to get my supplies, if i cant
get the usual supply, making it myself is
also an option. Desperate? yes..

Ever addicted with smoking pocketeers?
My addiction is also the same, cant go on without it.
3 hours of no smoking would cause the saliva to
taste like stale black cofee. without the black liquid of course.

Same with me, when its getting dark and i am still
short on supply, then my body will start to itch.
Frustrated and hot temper. The saliva will taste
like salty seawater, thick inside.
Oh!! please just put one on the head so that the pain would go away.

Yes pocketeers, as bad as it sound.
The pocket have an addiction.
cant get enough of it.
Today is my third day i'm not getting it,
I hope i can stay clean till wednesday
for my first attempt on stopping this illness.

but tomorrow is monday,
meaning that its another three days to my next dos of ...
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Ayam Goreng!! lambat nyer lagiiiii!!!
sigh(_ _;