93. Dreaming There Again

I've been seeing a dream, same dream
i'd say i've been seeing this dream since 1998,
seldom but memorable, frequent but barely noticeable
Same dream about the same river, freaky ha?

i'm traveling, sometimes i walk, sometimes i'm on a jeep,
the travels seems like climbing a mountain or higher ground.
cause i will always see cliff or view from higher plane.
after traveling for quite a while i notice that there's
a river on the side of the road.
the water is flowing gently and slow,
crystal clear till u can see huge fish swimming inside.

i felt panic, the road becoming tough and challenging.
i can see the water is also starting to turn wild,
its not gentle and slow anymore, ferociously rough instead.
The road going up and up and i can see the stream forming waterfalls..
high and white. Got the feeling of wanting to get there fast..
'apasal tak sampai lagi ni'.....'lambat lagi ker nak sampai?'
sometime the water even flow on the road i'm taking,
or on the rock i'm climbing, flowing down like a stream
and sometime falls from the trees like rains.

In the end i will come to a nice and quite place where
a tree is standing mighty on the margin of a lake,
with branches spreading shade all over the lake,
well it is not a lake, the river actually broadened
making a lake-like scenery.
THe tree is huge!! trunk as big as an oil tank,
a 'buaian' is strapped to the branch.
(That's how i know its the same tree every time i'm seeing this dream)
there is a plateau near the tree,
a slab of rock just enough for 5 people to have a picnic on it.
there will definitely be people there, usually friends or family,
when i was in japan, i've seen Yan and the GaijinSan
having picnic there, so does mummyvaio and ounis,
i didnt join them, usually i'll be looking from afar.
The menu is nice :) Chicken, fish and jelly,
i can remember yan taking a spoonful of coleslaw into her mouth..
ooh so delicious. happy and laughing, enjoying their picnic,
beautiful and elegant clad in white dress.
in other occasion i do seen Banji and Mama having nasik lemak
with filantera. Abah was not there, well no doubt about that,
and the dream will end there, i'll wake up smiling,
smiling because i've seen people smiled.

The thing is pocket,
last nite i've dreamed this again, but there was no one having picnic.
and i woke up not smiling, cause there was no one smiled.
menyedihkan... i wonder what is the meaning?
the water
the hill
the waterfall
the picnic
why just now no one picnic? gi mengundi? lamat lagi kan...
Hummmmmmm....duk tak duk tingat lagu ni...
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